Friday, April 24, 2015

HOLY. TWO. KIDS.

Celebrating Easter with our sweet girls! This is before Caroline dropped Charlotte on that Egg Hunt sign. 
Why haven’t I written a blog entry in so long? I’ll explain why in simple words: TWO KIDS. Needless to say to those who know me and see my disheveled hair, taking care of two little people has completely rocked my world. Add on top of the two little people two dogs, a home and a demanding career, and you’ve got a recipe for a “Hot Mess Momma.”

Charlotte Jo Surratt was born on 12-13-14. The good news is that we’ll never forget her birthday. I had a miserable pregnancy (lots of puking, bleeding, pre-term contractions, worrying), and I could not wait to eject this bundle of joy from my womb. But she came in her own time. I had my membranes swept that morning, so I decided to go workout with my best friend, Andrea. We ran, squatted, lifted weights and ran some more. The contractions started coming! Despite my best efforts, I still needed to have my water broken and Pitocin to move everything along.

My delivery room turned into a party! Our entire family (minus Pop because had the flu) gathered in my room. It was such a different experience than Caroline’s sudden and unexpected birth, so I savored the moment. I did have to ask my little brother to turn off the YouTube videos during intense contractions.

I know I’m weird, but I absolutely love giving birth and pushing out babies! It’s the most amazing miracle that God gives us, and I would not change anything about the birth of either daughter. When Charlotte was placed in my arms, I sobbed big, fat, happy tears. She was finally here, healthy and whole. Unlike Caroline who was rushed to the NICU, I got to hold Charlotte against my chest right away. I can’t even describe it. Just pure mommy bliss.

Holding Charlotte Jo the day after her birth. Pure sweetness!
Charlotte is now 4 months old. She is such an easy, happy baby girl. We all adore her and kiss her 1,000 times a day. The struggle has been adjusting to life with two kids, plus going back to work. I absolutely love my career, but it isn’t easy trying to do it all. I experienced severe postpartum anxiety. I imagined that I left a child in the car, forgot to feed someone or that one of the girls was in desperate trouble and no one could get to them. My chest felt like it was caving in. 

Just FYI girls, anxiety of this nature that lasts several weeks is a sign of post-partum depression. I talked to my midwife (who is amaze balls), and I’m now on medication. And I’m not ashamed. I finally feel like myself again and am much calmer and more relaxed. I tell y’all this experience so that if you’re going through this; please know that you’re not alone. I’m very lucky that I had a friend encourage me to get help. Don’t be afraid to talk to your doctor if you’re feeling this way. Our kiddos need healthy mommies!

Speaking of healthy, I’ve started CrossFit and am so excited for this new adventure! I’m often asked how I find the time to fit everything in. I don’t. My laundry piles up, I’m late on thank you notes and powdered sugar donut dust is forever in my car. However, I do my very best to stay organized- and I’m trying my darnedest to savor all of the sweet memories that each daughter is providing us. And I’ve also become less afraid to ask for help. I’m still working on this, but it’s so important to delegate. There is no shame in hiring a cleaning lady or a lawn company if your budget allows.

One of my favorite life hacks in a service called Dinner A'Fare. It is Atlanta-based but ships anywhere nationwide. This place makes healthy meals and ships them to your house. Thank you to my boss for telling me about it! It saves me SO much time and stress. All you do is freeze until you're ready to cook and add something like a salad or brown rice. Check it out: http://www.dinnerafare.com/


Hats off to all of you Mommies. I’m still trying to figure it all out and not show up to work with spit up on my clothes. I guess as long as they are smiling and have Jesus in their hearts, we’re doing something right.
My Minnie Pearls.